The Real Self Hate.

Recently I was  accosted by a fat/thick/chunky/curvy/obese woman. It seems every form of the word fat is offensive so take your pick.
I was shopping for jeans in my size, which happens to be a 0 in a few Bridgetown stores. By now most people know that there is such a thing as Size 0 as well as double and triple 0 as well.
I am always highly annoyed when I ask for a 0 and the sales assistant insist I fit a 3, because it is cut small.
To them, a Size 3 already looks like no possible healthy human adult could fit into it.

I was at the umpteenth store unsuccessful so far in my mission, where a sales clerk brought down a Size 1 from the store room and insisted I try it. One look at the jeans and I knew it wouldn't fit. Still she insisted I try it. I insisted it was a waste of time.

A large woman in the store overheard my exchange with the sales assistant and said to her friend clearly and loudly enough for me to hear.
"I hate these stupid skinny bitches. Who the hell wants to be a Size 0? She thinks she a model or something? She better put on some weight before she blows away."
To which her not so fat friend replied, "She ain't even cute."

THAT, friends, is a prime example of self hate. And I don't mean the self hate natural women like to accuse weave wearing sisters of. Or the self hate that women who don't wear make-up accuse women who do of. Not even the kind of self hate you are said to have if you bleach your black as midnight skin. All those things people can do with their own money on their own time without offending a soul.
But THAT! that is the REAL self hate. The kind where you hate your self so much that you have to attempt to make strangers in a store feel bad about themselves.

Such comments never merit response from me. I simply sashayed from the store with a laugh and extra sway in my skinny little hips.

Lades, be aware of your attitudes. If you "hate" skinny women, thick women, black women, white women. Ask yourself a serious WHY. Hate usually stems from some sort of resentment or jealousy.
Address the real issue and deal with it. Your hate toward people is a refection of what you hate about your self.

Food for thought.